The Killer

So, throughout my life I have distanced myself and removed myself from people and relationships that have proven to be wrong to me in some way shape or form. Trust has always been broken and someway or form been misused. For the longest time I have spent life alone but wandering and exploring and watching the ways of life, the ideas of what life could be, I was always in the land of imagination and happy, but why can't I live that life now, not that I am older now that I am becoming my own man I have begun to trust again and to involve people in my life. However, that I have distanced myself for so long I dunno how to interact with people anymore, I don't even know how to approach people anymore... I have run into a couple of people of my life that have made me stronger and helping me make myself into the person I imagined to be and the person I can be. But, with those same people I've become a Killer and have been smoothering them in my hands to where they have become distant from me...  It was a lil bird in my hands I was hanging on to the way they were making me feel so tightly that I was killing them and that I need to open my hands and let them fly free... I have to let them know that I am there and then from there let them be there for me and give them space and maybe they will come to me... People that I vibe with I have noticed I quickly get attached and I need to withdraw I need to not press on them for if I do I will forever be alone... for I will truly be the Dead amongst the Living...